Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history. Spades - King David, Clubs - Alexander the Great, Hearts - Charlemagne, and Diamonds - Julius Caesar.

If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.

good to know

Pensive, meditative, reflective suggest quiet modes of apparent or real thought. Pensive, the weakest of the three, suggests dreaminess or wistfulness, and may involve little or no thought to any purpose: a pensive, faraway look. Meditative involves thinking of certain facts or phenomena, perhaps in the religious sense of “contemplation,” without necessarily having a goal of complete understanding or of action: meditative but unjudicial. Reflective has a strong implication of orderly, perhaps analytic, processes of thought, usually with a definite goal of understanding: a careful and reflective critic.

the room was filled with conversations we weren't having.
-extremely loud and incredibly close

transparent attempted sincerity

we're intertwined, yet distant
as you breathe out and kiss me
the taste of hotel mints attempting to cover your cigar fills

misleading substance
solely sensory pleasure
this feeling keeps my mind from falling to the future

metaphysics
appearance and reality
what is? and what is what i want it to be?

if i could exist only my own apperception
i could be fully sane
and would come to realize
your comparable to a relationship with the weather
surely fleeting and unsure of itself

You know, he's holding you down with the tips of his fingers
just the same
Will you be pulled from the ocean
but just a minute too late
Or changed by a potion
and find a handsome young mate for you to love.
-the shins

covenant to self
i will not settle for someone who doesnt...
-see me diffrently
-empower me
-have expectations and goals for themself


and in the mean time my official new years resolution since i havent exactly wrote it down yet is:
A(practical): learn how to cook thai food
B(self): reaccess my goals and motivate myself. discover my true values and live by them. desubmerge myself in popculture and other petty things. progress artistically every week. become completely comfortable as an independant.

pragmatism vs. romantasism

i dont know how to start this, and would not like to waste time explaining it. im already ahead of myself trying to think of 7 and i must write them down before they slip away.

1. at almost seventeen, im very confused as to where i stand religiously. secular ideas and my romantic belief in something higher are almost equally balanced, although i do know where the scale is headed. even in the previous sentence as a describe higher belief as 'romanitic' i can feel the scales tipping. a year ago maybe two years i would have said God without hesitation, but now i have absolutlely no faith in the organizied religion Christianity. some of this has come from the fact that it has been heavily pushed on me most of my life (and i know some people would say the same, but i would like to belive that i have more reason then most) and i did, i ate it up for the first half. then however pragmatism kicked in and i began to see things diffrently. i also have drawn many lines from people i dont respect, back to Christianity. people who i dont let become more then aquaintences, athority figures, republicans who warp peoples minds by regurgitating back onto them scripture, that the people can not even quote back themselves, but sadly they absorb it. religion in my eyes in some ways is an added handle another way for someone to take advantage of them. however i have not become uninterested in other religion, in fact it has made me far more curious, and has revealed how little i know about other religions. i spent this winter break reading a few books, one of which being Religious Literacy by Stephen Prethero (for the most part engaging and informative). for now i think i do belive in a higher power, it was explained to me this way: you can trace backwards pretty far, as far back as two atoms, some lightning, and an expanse of space. but at some point you have to stop. where did the atoms come from? what about the lightning? what is this expanse? where did it come from? what is life? love?
i think to live as moral of a life as i can, is the best i can do and not to worry about after, later, ending.




after writing one my brain is still buzzing, but i think i would like to do this in sections. i enjoy writing and i enjoy learning about myself as i write. there is just one but i rambled, and i have a feeling i will ramble and would like to ramble about the rest.


-thank you matt

i absolutely love learning about myslef, as wierd as that sounds. >>>Right brain dominant individuals are more visual and intuitive. They are better at summarizing multiple points, picking up on what's not said, visualizing things, and making things up. They can lack attention to detail, directness, organization, and the ability to explain their ideas verbally, leaving them unable to communicate effectively.

Right Brain

80%
Left Brain

32%