the room was filled with conversations we weren't having.
-extremely loud and incredibly close

transparent attempted sincerity

we're intertwined, yet distant
as you breathe out and kiss me
the taste of hotel mints attempting to cover your cigar fills

misleading substance
solely sensory pleasure
this feeling keeps my mind from falling to the future

metaphysics
appearance and reality
what is? and what is what i want it to be?

if i could exist only my own apperception
i could be fully sane
and would come to realize
your comparable to a relationship with the weather
surely fleeting and unsure of itself

You know, he's holding you down with the tips of his fingers
just the same
Will you be pulled from the ocean
but just a minute too late
Or changed by a potion
and find a handsome young mate for you to love.
-the shins

covenant to self
i will not settle for someone who doesnt...
-see me diffrently
-empower me
-have expectations and goals for themself


and in the mean time my official new years resolution since i havent exactly wrote it down yet is:
A(practical): learn how to cook thai food
B(self): reaccess my goals and motivate myself. discover my true values and live by them. desubmerge myself in popculture and other petty things. progress artistically every week. become completely comfortable as an independant.